CHRIS KAMARA says he contemplated suicide as he struggled in his health battle in a heartbreaking revelation.
The former footy star, 65, went on to become one of the most-loved pundits on the box.
GettyChris Kamara has made a heartbreaking revelation in his new book[/caption]
He achieved legendary status working alongside Jeff Stelling on Sky Sports Soccer Saturday for three decades.
Kammy left his role on Sky Sports in 2022 after being diagnosed with an underactive thyroid, leaving him with a condition that affects his speech.
Kamara explained how he felt like a “fraud” following his apraxia of speech diagnosis – and like someone else is controlling his voice.
The ex-Swindon and Brentford midfielder has continued with some of his media work as the host of ITV’s Ninja Warrior UK and co-host of the BBC’s Proper Football podcast with Ben Shephard.
However, he has now revealed in his new book titled ‘Kammy’ how he had the darkest of thoughts at his lowest point and decided he did not want to be a burden on his wife Anne.
He writes his deepest thoughts and worries in the book, which is being serialised in the Daily Mirror.
Kamara wrote: “I’m going to admit something now, something I’ve never mentioned before. It’s hard for me to talk about, so bear with me.
“I worried about where I was going to end up. Would my physical and neurological deterioration just keep going and going? And I worried more about the effect it would have on those around me.
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“I’m a man who has always wanted to help, to provide, to love and nurture those around me. And now I could only see myself as a burden. A shell of the man I used to be that they would be left to look after.
“Seeing myself like that was like staring into an abyss. I could never reconcile that image in my head. It was unthinkable.
“And it’s at that point I’d think, ‘They’d be better off without me.’”
He admitted that Gary Speed’s tragic suicide in 2011 then came into his mind, saying: “I thought of Gary Speed and then I thought of my own position – a man in his mid-sixties, whose best days, because of a brain condition, were gone, struggling on while becoming a weight on all around him. Whose wife and children would be left to deal with whatever I became.
Sky SportsGary Spped (bottom right, pictured with Kammy, top left) committed suicide in 2011[/caption]
“I didn’t want that for Anne and the boys. So how do you prevent it from happening? You take yourself out of the picture.
“There were times when I definitely thought that was a way out. If you’re stuck in a maze, with no sign of an escape route, eventually you’ll try something extreme. Especially if you have chosen to wander that maze alone.”
Thankfully for everyone, Kamara opened up on his issues and he urged anyone else contemplating those dark thoughts to seek help.
He adds that he began to release that the “future was not so bleak” as he began to accept his illness.
GettyChris Kamara was diagnosed with apraxia and left Sky Sports Soccer Saturday in 2022[/caption] Creator – [#item_custom_dc:creator]
